It hit me hard this winter season. For those of you unaware about SAD, it is quite literally a disorder where you are sad because you have not seen the sun. Where I am from in the Midwest, we lack the required amount of sunlight needed to produce the right kind of happy time chemicals in our body. In the winter time, this can be even more drastic. I personally have never had my Vitamin D levels checked, but I would venture to guess like everyone else mine would be on the low side.
Regardless of actual amount, SAD, or any diagnosis I have felt like crap most of January and February. February always sucks, but I am slowly getting out of my funk. I just wanted to hole up in my room and not come out. Doing anything extra curricular has been out of the question. I have no desire to shoot photos, make videos, or even practice my magicks. I just kinda sit around watching YouTube. Hell, I don’t even care to play video games anymore.
It got worse when I got the flu this season. I had it for seven straight days, and four of those days I was laid up in bed completely. No want or need to even leave. It was terrible. I have not been this sick since I was a kid. It just really put a wrench in any recovery I had made, if any, and made me become even more of a hermit.
Socially I am sometimes unreachable, I have been forcing myself to go out here and there in hopes I regaining some normalcy. It isn’t that I don’t want to spend time with my friends, it’s just that it can be exhausting at this point, especially considering what I am doing for a job, as well. My relationship suffered for a bit in there too. Nothing felt right or the same, but we are getting it back on track.
As the days progress, I am starting to take more and more action in my every day to recover from this mind fog of sorts. I don’t consider myself a depressed person but we all go through things, right? We all have those times where we feel off, and wonder if we’ll come around. I am getting there, slowly but surely. I am seeing some friends I haven’t seen in ages here soon, and that is exciting. Also I got a bonus at work for being a good little worker bee so we will be taking that money and enjoying a few days to ourselves.
If you are struggling, whether it is just this wintry season, or you regularly struggle with depression it can and does get better. The only thing I have found that works for me is putting yourself in situations where you used to get excited before. It may seem like a monumental task, but when you make those plans follow through. Simply adhering to them makes me feel better. Also cleaning up your living space helps a lot too, at least it does for me.
With all this said, I hope to be on here a bit in 2020. Expect more photos, as I have been hired for my first ever photography job in May. Should be interesting to say the least. Well, there’s my update I am not dead, just kinda here and there for now.
Come on Spring…
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